TIME: you are immortal

I wish I had something that could be able to play, pause and rewind my time; my life. Everyday I feel like I don't want my time to go forward instead I wander what would it be like if I could go back to my past?

I don't know why I am afraid of facing my future. Maybe, its due to the inability to face new challenges and changes. Who knows how might I end up being in my future?

And taking about past who doesn't want to go there?

If god comes to me and says " OK! here is the remote and there is the TV and the program currently being showed in the TV is your past. So, you better watch it kid."

"God! this won't satisfy me. I want to be in my past but not be a fan of my life and watch it in a TV."